Sarah Herron is opening up about the terrifying realities of postpartum after losing her newborn son.
This past weekend, The Bachelor alum uploaded a photo of herself to Instagram in an adult diaper… one week after the death of her son, Oliver Brown, who passed away shortly after she was 24 weeks pregnant.
“TW – Postpartum loss is still postpartum after pregnancy. I hadn’t even read the chapter on perinatal care or breastfeeding support. I jumped from second trimester to fourth trimester overnight,” Herron opened up on Friday.
The former reality star revealed the many things she didn’t know she would Even then needed, as well as revealing that she didn’t expect her breast milk to come in, meaning she would have to learn to pump.
Despite not having the baby to feed. Simply devastating.
“Suddenly my days that should be spent sampling belly oils and rubbing my bump take a crash course in postpartum relief through streaming tears,” she continued.
“I don’t want relief, I want my baby.”
Herron appeared on Sean Lowe’s season of The Bachelor in 2013, has been engaged to Dylan Brown since 2021 and announced her pregnancy last September.
“Since coming home without Oliver, a reminder of what should have happened, and what I must do now without him,” Herron wrote in her latest post.
“There’s no way to prepare yourself for the subtle discomforts of pregnancy that can suddenly disappear without warning.”
Harrow notes how heartbreaking it is to look in the mirror and be reminded that there is no bump anymore.
Herron said that “the things I craved during my pregnancy” like a turkey sandwich and a glass of wine “feel like a profound abandonment of my child …
“And the things I loved during pregnancy; Like berries (so many berries!) seems like deceiving.
She continued thus:
“I never prepared for this, and no mother should. I understand why no doctor or book tells you about the potential for this torture.” [and] I have no positive way to end this post.
“It’s probably the saddest thing I’ve ever shared.”
Herron is disappointed, but not alone.
In a separate post, she wrote about her dog Rio:
“He hasn’t left my side in a week. He’s so sad, it breaks my heart.
“Why are dogs so magical? I can’t stop wondering how she knew when we were in Bend, [Oregon] That Oliver was not well.
“We didn’t know, but he knew. I hate it so much. I’m sorry he was scared.
Sharing a selfie on her Instagram Story on Friday, Herron pointed out that the snapshot was from a week ago, writing alongside it:
“It’s been a week. It was our last morning that everyone sat together. It was the last morning that I had to put up with their great vicissitudes and hiccups. I have to go back.
“I would give anything to go back to last Friday morning.”
“We miss and love you, baby boy.”