Jessa Duggar talks about something very personal and very painful.
In a nearly 19-minute YouTube video (“Heartbreak Over the Holidays”) posted late Friday, the former reality star revealed she suffered a miscarriage several weeks ago, sharing her latest pregnancy heartbreak with friends and family. told followers alike.
Reflecting on the moment she learned she had lost her baby, Duggar recounted in the footage the ultrasound technician told her:
“The bag looks good. The child doesn’t.'”
“Nothing could have prepared me for the weight of those words at that moment,” she said, recalling that she “immediately started crying.”
Technician steps out of room as she and husband Ben Seewald “try to process the loss” [while] Sitting there and crying holding hands.
He continued:
“We were just sitting there holding hands and crying, like, ‘What do we do from here.’
“I think in some ways a miscarriage can be so jarring because you don’t have obvious signs that something is wrong. I had minimal spotting for 24 hours, and that was it.”
Jessa and Ben are parents to sons Spurgeon, 7, and Henry, 6; and daughters Ivy, 3, and Fern, 18 months.
She never announced her fifth pregnancy, but fans started asking questions about her status in January.
Due to the risk of complications, Duggar said in the video that she decided to check into a hospital to have a dilation and curettage procedure to remove the baby from her womb.
Simply devastating.
Jessa became very emotional on camera as she recalled the moments before the procedure, saying:
“I was able to thank God in that moment for giving us this life, even though we couldn’t hold this baby in our arms.”
Yet, despite such an amazing attitude, the 30-year-old said it was Afterwards The process was complete that he faced one of the most challenging moments of the entire process.
“Those 10 to 15 minutes before I was taken back to the room where Ben and my mom were waiting were probably some of the hardest times in my life, just lying there feeling alone,” she explained, because His voice broke on camera.
The TLC alum concluded the video by holding fast to her faith and holding on to the hope that she’ll be able to see her child someday.
“When you lose someone you love, it makes heaven sweeter. We talked to the kids about it.
“We can’t wait to meet this little baby in heaven one day.”
She also said that she plans to “take a break” from social media and focus on recovery.
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